I am waiting to hear back from my teacher at North Providence high school about coming to observe on Monday. I feel like I should be freaking out at this point with nerves but I'm not.... yet. I think it is because it hasn't sunk in yet. Monday seems so far away still. I still have to work thirty hours between now and then so maybe that's why. I am positive that come Sunday night I will be having a melt down about what I am going to wear, how I will style my hair curly? straight?, and what I am going to say on my first day. Oh, first impressions why are you such a bother?
I'm not just anticipating feeling nervous, I know that as the week of teaching alone gets closer and closer I am going to get that anxious excited feeling. I have been waiting for this forever, I want to teach. I want to know how I feel about teaching when I have done it for a week. I want to know that I can do it...that I can plan lessons, teach them, and feel that accomplishment. I think that is one of the reasons that I am glad that I don't have a partner going with me to the class. Even though I will have the actual teacher there with me, at the end of this experience I will feel more confident in myself as a teacher. Don't get me wrong though I am nervous about not going in with a partner. I liked having a partner to teach with last semester, less pressure that way...I miss you already Faith...but I know I am going to have to learn to be comfortable running a classroom alone eventually. At least this way the teacher is there with me if I need help.
Can't wait to meet my teacher!
